Trying to stay awake

So, I was up all night. I haven't pulled an all nighter since the eighth grade. You know, those church retreats where you have a lock in or my personal favorite was the all night party. We would go to a movie at 10 and then at midnight go to cheap skate and then to someones house for a pool party etc. etc. Looking back, I am more thankful to all the staff who helped out. Pulling an all nighter now is like hell for me, I am sure it took some sacrifice. I am not really sure why I couldn't sleep last night. I got home really late from a friends house and laid down but I just spent the entire night staring at the ceiling. At about 6:30 I got up and ate food and talked to my roommate who also had had a difficult time sleeping. The weird part is, I called my mom like a half hour ago and she had also been up since about 2:30 and couldn't sleep. Maybe its something in the air....
However, I don't really care that I didn't sleep because I had such a good night that it was worth it. I think the high from being happy and having fun was partly to blame/the Sudafed I took to stop my runny nose. When I get home from my interview I am going to smoke a huge J and fall asleep. Its going to be amazing. So for now, I am just killing time... There are some things on my mind though. I have been thinking a lot lately about how connected everything is. Not so much analyzing it as questioning it. I don't think there has been a lot of research done (although no one can be certain) on the connection between, say, the effect that the frog population in Minnesota has had on the increase of childbirth in humans. Now, I think that is pretty much impossible to study. I know that there are theories out there such as string theory that believe everything to be connected in certain ways ( but I am no expert). When I talked to my mother this morning, she asked me if I knew weather or not we had a full moon last night. I said no, but she was telling me about how when she was in college she lived with a bunch of nursing students who worked in the maternity ward. She told me that the nights there was a full moon, they would always come home exhausted because for some reason or another there were so many births. Then she rattled on about gravitational pull and such but my mother doesn't know anything about these kind of things. The point is, I do believe that everything is connected. Not merely because I believe in God (although that is a large part of it) but because I have seen personally, so many small things affected by other small things, and there are smaller things on smaller microscopic scales that I can't begin to even understand. Our earth is such a fragile system. No, I don't believe that it could go at any moment necessarily (our earth is going to outlast us all after we kill ourselves), but things coordinate so importantly, with purposes I believe we humans will never be able to completely grasp, graph, count etc. When I think about that, I am glad that I am not in God's place. Not only is he responsible to control all of these coordinating motions of our system, but then people pray to him to change shit that he knows he isn't going to change because for all I know it could make our planet explode to find a cure for cancer. Then he sits there and listens to us gripe at him about not answering our prayers and when he does answer them with a YES we forget so easily that he ever answered. We sit and piss and moan and pray to him when we are in trouble. After all that he still loves us and wants to communicate with us. That is insane. But yea, that isn't really the point of this post. I just can't help but wonder weather the way I step on the earth helps keep it in place, weather earthquakes and volcanoes are what keep whole countries from exploding. I wonder I wonder.