Hell Yea this is Bloggable

Man, I am just being fucking pulled around right now. I had such an incredible weekend, and up until about twenty minutes ago I was feeling great. Then, I had to grow a pair and tell a friend of mine something that he didn't want to hear. The reaction was in essence not good and now I am faced with the closing of doors that I have had my foot in forever. I hope it is worth it. I really hope it is. I have a couple more doors to close before I can rest easily on the issue and I am hoping they go a little better than this one did. I think they will. This situation has been sticky for a long time and in some ways I am happy that there is no longer any confusion on the issue but I am also unsure of what to expect next. Good job me, way to be so vague that when I come back to read this in 5 years I will be like, "What the hell was I talking about?"

Other than that bit though, like I said. Incredible weekend. My significant other asked me weather he thought this weekend was bloggable. I kept my mouth shut but my answer is obviously yes. I think one of the best parts was attending a family event at his parent's house with him. Not so much because I am dyyyying to be part of his family but there were so many little kids there and I just got to play and play with them after they got less confused and scared by my presence. I also got to see the B playing with them which is absolutely priceless. He is so adorable with little kids. Guys should really figure out that girls loooooove seeing them with kids but I think it often escapes their attention. I also ended up getting fairly drunk and having an extensive tipsy conversation with B's mother which was enjoyable at the least. I really like talking to her even though we don't necessarily agree on everything, but she is just so funny and cute sometimes. Anyway, today we went for a walk and the fall colors were so gorgeous, maybe even moreso than my trip to the bluffs. The river always holds new surprises and even though I am more than familiar with the paths we took today, everything just seemed so new and wet and beautiful. B let me put his glasses on for a few minutes and I kept feeling like I was running into some sort of nature poster.

So many interesting issues were brought up this weekend. We had such a great time talking and I really felt like I got to learn a few new things about B. I often end up being the only one to share my opinions and I really attempted to make a conscious effort to learn a few of his. I love listening to him talk and I love asking him questions about himself. I wanna get better at the asking part and I hope I do. Speaking of getting better, the final amazing thing about the weekend was that the sex was phenomenomanal. So good and it just kept getting better. I had a bit of an intense mental moment when we did something that I have never done before together. Wow. We don't intend on making this thing a habit but....Wow. Thats all I have to say about that.

B also reminded me about my previous obsession with the computer game Elasto Mania which is just this weird 2D biker game where you just bike around trying to find apples. Its super sweet and kind of addicting to play and I have a feeling I will be playing more of it again soon. It has been a sufficient amount of time now, as I got sick of it last time. I really had almost nothing to blog about and at the same time everything to blog about today. I do believe that this weekend was at least of note to get it on the blog although as usual, details and small itty bitty thoughts will be presented in journal format. A few of the issues that we talked about I will continue to mull and hopefully I will put them in a better form at some time or another soon.