Cabining and other things (turns out I am awful with titles)

I am pretty exhausted today, being that I spent the whole weekend at my sister's cabin drinking very little else but alcohol and going to bed later than I planned. I took B, which I was kinda nervous about but I think it ended up being a good thing. He got to know my sister which is somewhat essential to getting to know me, but in some ways is a little more boyfriendish than I would like. I had a difficult time the whole weekend with acting exactly how I wanted to act because I felt like I was under scrutiny from my sister. All in all though, excellent weekend. Now I am drunker, tanner, basically sexier version of myself. I won at poker, beating my brother in law's friends and B (again:)) which made me feel awesome as winning at poker always does.
There was a guy there at the cabin, with which I used to have some insane sexual chemistry. I was really worried that it would still be there this weekend but to my pleasant surprise, not only was I not attracted to him, I found myself to be somewhat disgusted by him.
Some other crazy cabiny stuff that happened included but is not limited to, hiking around in a creek, jumping on my old big trampoline, getting real drunk at a street dance, eating waffles at a fireman's fundraiser, and wakeboarding. Oh and I got to sleep next to B which for some reason I LOVED and was actually excited about for the first time in a while. Toward the end of the weekend though, he accused me kind of accused me of being a slut (a valid accusation perhaps) and it made me really sad but I think it comes from a basic difference in the way we look at our interactions with people. I would argue that what makes me not a slut (if I am in fact not) are the reasons for why I sleep with people. I am not 100% sure sure of what all of them are, but I am quite sure that they are not because I want attention, am short a good father figure, because I am trying to control people or am trying to get a boyfriend really bad. In fact, one of the number one reasons I have dated so many people this year is because I have been so sick of being tied down to one person....anyway, now I feel a little reprimanded and a little sad and a little ashamed but still, the weekend with him was 98.6% excellent.
I have not yet had a chance to read the new Harry Potter book and I am terrified that I am going to hear the end accidentally before I read it. A friend of mine is going to loan it to me to read probably Wednesday. It's quite possible that there is an all nighter in my very near future.
I have been trying really hard to like hip hop more again lately. Every time I am seeing a guy who loves hip hop I try to get into it. This time I am having a little success. I am getting into Gangstarr, Mr. Lif and MF Doom (again) (in that order). At the cabin, all we did was listen to Nickelback, no country even. It made me want to scream and tear my hair out. Hip hop was a welcome change on the ride home and even more enjoyable than usual thanks to the sexy guy sitting next to me. When he drives and is listening to hip hop, I feel like I am watching his movie with his soundtrack and its a beautiful moment.
I officially started training on my new job today. It was so corporate that it made me want to puke, but its corporate restaurants that run smoothly. Honestly, I am kinda glad I am working for a well established, successful corporation. It will give me a chance to get back on my feet financially. I really want to save up money this year so that I can travel. I want to bike the oceanic trail next. The oceanic trail runs from Washington to California and I have heard it is gorgeous. The problem is, I doubt anyone would want to go with me and it is so unsafe for girls to do stuff like that by themselves. I wish I had a friend who loved adventure like me, who wanted to jump on trains and skydive and hike and bike and go crazy with me. I don't always like that stuff, but being a girl, I get so pissed off. I am reminded of these lyrics.

Just A Girl"

Take this pink ribbon off my eyes
I'm exposed
And it's no big surprise
Don't you think I know
Exactly where I stand
This world is forcing me
To hold your hand
'Cause I'm just a girl, little 'ol me
Don't let me out of your sight
I'm just a girl, all pretty and petite
So don't let me have any rights

Oh...I've had it up to here!
The moment that I step outside
So many reasons
For me to run and hide
I can't do the little things I hold so dear
'Cause it's all those little things
That I fear

'Cause I'm just a girl I'd rather not be
'Cause they won't let me drive
Late at night I'm just a girl,
Guess I'm some kind of freak
'Cause they all sit and stare
With their eyes

I'm just a girl,
Take a good look at me
Just your typical prototype

Oh...I've had it up to here!
Oh...am I making myself clear?
I'm just a girl
I'm just a girl in the world...
That's all that you'll let me be!
I'm just a girl, living in captivity

Your rule of thumb
Makes me worry some
I'm just a girl, what's my destiny?
What I've succumbed to Is making me numb
I'm just a girl, my apologies
What I've become is so burdensome
I'm just a girl, lucky me
Twiddle-dum there's no comparison

Oh...I've had it up to
Oh...I've had it up to
Oh...I've had it up to here.

Anyway. I hope that I find someone like that to hang out with sometime. I am sure they are out there. I just can't imagine how someone could NOT want to do all the crazy things I want to do. I mean, you only have one life! How can you not want to try everything?!? I just don't understand. Anyway, I think the biking of the oceanic trail is my next goal in life. My next fun goal. It is going to be so crazy being out of school this year. I will have way more time to go visit my friends. Here is my days list.

Top 5 People in places I want to see
1. BTS-California (but it wont work out because He will be in Australia with his stupid GF)
2. John-Texas
3. Jon-Montana
4. B- Lacrosse, WI
5. Shell-Winona

We will see how that stuff works out. My list of things I am most excited for has almost come true. Thus far, numbers 2-5, and 7-9 have already been fulfilled. Well, a friend of mine, Em is coming over tonight. It should be fun hanging out, chilling with her. She is one of those girls you can't handle seeing every day but you really wanna hang out with them occasionally. Shes a good lady, an excellent one in fact. I am having a hard time figuring out how to end this post. Maybe with
Toodles