Oops, publishing this a day late

Look at me now, I am like a month into this and I am blogging the crap out of everything. Of course there has been a significantly larger amount of drama than usual but I think it is safe to say that I love blogging now. SHHHHH. Don't tell. I wish that I knew for a fact that nobody read this blog but I know for a fact that at least one person has/does. It's ok. I have really made an effort to pretend like no one has and to write for myself and myself alone. Today is Sunday, it feels a little odd to not be at church this morning even though there have been plenty of Sunday's where I have skipped church, today I really wanted to go. I love to feel God's arms wrapped around me. I might go to this outdoor service tonight at a church in Edina. The church I went to as a High Schooler, CPC. I was thinking today that its been a really long time since I have been challenged by a sermon, or a lecture or any sort of scholastic activity. I really miss it. Its not because I'm not in school right now either. My last two semesters of school didn't really have anything interesting in them. My Youth and Spirituality class was ok second semester but it really never got further than the basics, and my teacher was so easy I just ended up slacking and not really reading any of the books or anything. I really wish I could take just one class this semester at school as a non degree seeking student. I looked through some of the classes available this semester for fun. Some classes that look really interesting to me are...
1. Language Culture and Power- Language, Culture, and Power aims to consider language as a social and political practice from an anthropological perspective which pays close attention to language in its contexts of use. The complex relationship between language, culture, and power raises important questions: how does language shape our view of the world? What relations of power are produced in language use and beliefs about language? How is language used creatively to produce social worlds? What are the politics of using one variety of language over another? What are the politics of writing, and how do debates about spoken language carry over to the written word?
2. The Rise of Civilization-Examines the development of complex societies, from early hunter-gatherer groups through settled agricultural villages, to the rise of towns and cities. Comparison of processes of change in ten regions of the world. Intended for all undergraduates.
3. Pacific Island Societies- Pretty self explanatory
4. Symbolic Anthropology-Symbolic anthropology is a way of understanding cultures as systems of symbols, meanings, and intentions. Cultures are understood as "symbolic orders" or, alternatively, as arenas comprising meaningful discourse and counter-discourse. In either view, they are something more than disconnected habits or practices. Symbolic anthropology focuses on figurative rather than literal meanings. It also focuses on expressive culture (e.g., folklore, myth, ritual, humor, political speech). Topics in symbolic anthropology include: totemism, ritual pollution; taboo; rites of transition; divine kinship; fertility rituals; folk medicine; body mutilation, tattooing, and cosmetics; and symbolic constructions of gender relations. The course asks how symbolic practices represent social and political values and unconscious wishes.
5. Human Evolution- I just want to take this class so that I can get pissed off every day


Anyway, I think maybe I will sit in on a few lectures in the fall. I probably won't but it might be kinda cool to go to a class for free and not have to do any of the homework, just sit and absorb the information. We will see how big the classes that I am interested in are. Man, I never realized before last year how much I love anthropology. Just reading the fucking descriptions turns me on.
Things are still up in the air with the boy. I have no idea where he is sitting and its fine. I've waited longer than two days before. I fucking hope he doesn't give up on me. I really do. It wouldn't surprise me if he did though. Who's to say hes any different from the only other boy I have ever met who is like him?
Me and my crazy Moroccan roommate are getting along way better now. I think our democratic sex talk helped a lot, as well has him becoming friends with my neighbor. I can hang out with him comfortably now and now that I am comfortable with him I am able to be nicer to him because I am not scared hes gonna rape me in my sleep. Not that I wouldn't welcome a good Moroccan raping, I mean, you'd have to be crazy not to. I think tonight I am gonna go over to the lake and go for a midnight swim. That should be fun and some good alone time. I need to start getting some more alone time in again. Every summer stretches me way to thin as far as friends go and when I do get alone time the only thing it is is cleaning. Always cleaning. I need to plan things for myself to do. That way my alone time will be more attractive. I mean, don't get me wrong, I would love to go on a midnight swim with a sexy boy or a friend but if I do end up alone, that should be what I do. Speaking of friends, someone is coming over now. I wish he wouldn't always get a hold of me right when i get home. It's like I have no time to breathe. No wonder I had a fucking nervous breakdown last summer. I can't wait till we move into our new apt. so that I can get away from him.
Today I heard the song Silver Spring on the radio by Fleetwood Mac. I haven't heard that song in forever. It flew me back to sophomore year, sitting on my bed with my sister while she played it for me. She had decided that it was about a boy I was in love with. One of the only loves I have ever known. I think one of the best parts of this song are these lines that could be really creepy if you think about it but I love it.

Time cast a spell on you
But you won't forget me
I know I could have loved you
But you would not let me

I follow you down 'till the sound
Of my voice will haunt you
You'll never get away from the sound
Of the woman who loves you


Anyway. That song was for you Greg. I hope you don't die in Iraq now! You'll never read this so the sarcasm will go unnoticed. Not that I want you to die or anything...


Ok, I never finished that post obviously because it was Sunday. I never went on that midnight swim but I can see it in my near future.