Gotta fill that quota

Tonight is October 31st. Happy Halloween, All Hallows Eve etc. I had to get my sinking number of blogs per month up or else I am afraid it would be considered a trend. A huge trend obviously, that would proceed to be discussed on CNN, being that this blog is so popular.

So I was thinking just now. I was thinking about what exactly I am supposed to do with this blog now that I have a boyfriend. See, although he read my blog before, he didn't have such a direct effect on things being written in it. Now that we are dating, things that I may be feeling that are still blog appropriate may have to be written in my journal. There have always been things that I thought "belonged" in my journal or possibly were just not quite blog appropriate, but what about things that are so much easier to blog about because of the whole ability for me to stay on the same topic because I can type faster than I can write? When I am trying to work out things in my head that he has said that I disagree with or that challenge me, I am unsure as to weather I want to spend all that time journaling my thoughts out. Anyway, I will have to think about that because I always promised myself that I would blog as if nobody I knew was reading it.

My roommate and I skipped out on the main Halloween festivities this year which I was very glad about. I had a conversation with my sister the other night and we both agreed that the pressure to dress up slutty on Halloween is frustrating and also puts us in an awkward situation of forced creativity. Neither of us have ever liked it much, although I would say that if i have a good idea for a costume I tend to enjoy myself more than her. So when Bang decided that she was too sick to go outs last night I thanked my lucky stars because I did not want to get all the way downtown to a club in my fucking freezing cold apron and get rejected for wearing shoes for crews. I also didn't feel like comparing myself to other girls which is inevitable when you go out in a situation like Halloween, prom or a cocktail party. We went to Applebees instead and had a good time just sitting and chatting. I normally carry the conversation for the most part but tonight Bang was money. She chatted the whole time and let me just kind of stare off into space.

NEXT DAY

I had a pretty good study time today with Bang. We went to a coffee shop and although I usually don't like the atmosphere in coffee shops, I need to go somewhere to study that has a table and a chair. The only table in our house is right next to the cat box in our dirty kitchen. I sit at it only when I have cleaned really well right beforehand. I prefer coffee shops to campus libraries as well. In a perfect world I would go to a sweet old fashioned library with high vaulted ceilings and a coffee shop on the bottom level. So, I studied more out of my personal trainer book today and for the first time I learned some new stuff. It was refreshing because between personal trainer shit and aerobics I get a lot of double stuff that I feel like I should still read to refresh up on but it doesn't necessarily teach me anything new. But today I learned about why the human body is inefficient for lifting weight. I am also excited to start chapter four on nutrition even though I am sure it will be a lot of memorization. I just never get sick of reading about how different foods help your body and what your body needs to survive and flourish.

The other night on the phone with B I had some ideas that apparently were "bloggable." I seem to always have ideas like this but for some reason I feel like it is just so much work to blog about certain topics, especially when it comes to philosophy. I guess I just assume that the person who is reading it has no previous knowledge of the topic so I always feel the necessity of laying a foundation/background for the reader. I hate broken arguments and its important to me that they get the whole picture. This equals more typing than I am interested in and by the time I am done with the introduction I am no longer interested in sharing my amazing point of view with my reader. I Really need to learn to shorten my ideas and not feel that necessity to explain every little thing. I just worry that if things don't get explained that doesn't make it a sound argument when in reality this blog isn't some forum for philosophy but a copy and record of my thoughts over this time in my life. So I will make a short list of "bloggable" ideas I have had lately and it will be enough to remind myself of these ideas when I look back on this blog (hopefully).

1. Recently I have become interested again in the idea that when words are bolded, quoted or italicized in a sentance it totally changes the meaning of the sentence. I used to be obsessed with this idea but forgot about it for a short time until recently.
You ate the dog?!
You ate the dog?!
You ate the dog?!
You ate the dog?!

2. Lately reading so many old mystery books, mark twain, Henry James, etc. I have seen how downhill insults in our generation have gone. It used to be that insults were eloquent and the receiver of them was forced to make a more eloquent insult on return or lose the verbal battle. Sarcasm, as glorious as it is, can't come close to some of the insults that I have found in my most recent reads.

3. In my head, everything is connected by all the forces in the world. Gravity, air pressure, kinetic energy and such things are invisible to the average observer but they are often picked up by the subconscious or the body. There fore I believe that when something happens to someone that is often difficult to explain such as foresight or a connection between things occurs that is not provable it happens because forces come together to create something of a temporary bond or web that exerts a stronger force than usual on that person or event. Vague? Yes. But all part of my new plan.

So those are my three most recent bloggable items in a nice short concise numerical system. Huzzah for organization, a visible imprint of the way our brains work.

Time to talk a little bit about how amazing my boyfriend is. When he fixed my itunes he accidentally found 3 albums that I previously thought that I had lost on my computer. He took me out for the most yummy dinner on Friday night when he came to visit me this weekend. Yesterday when I was feeling shitty he kept me company and didn't feel uncomfortable about my suicidal tendencies. He made me laugh and made me think about big things that had nothing to do with me. He gives me perspective and keeps me sane. He is completely comfortable spending time with my family and even looks for opportunities to do so. Sometimes the gulf between us seems monstrous and sometimes I feel him closer than anything. Both of these feelings can come from one conversation. He is amazing and today I thought about him the whole day, so much so that I had to blog about it.